So sorry for your loss Haithar .
On a happier note , I FINALLY am dreaming it , a Meyers device . In my dream I was frustrated and happy , there was a "special result" thing that I felt excited about . It was a wonderful dream filled with positive emotion over something . I usually never feel good when I dream about this , always the feeling of total loss and confusion .
Usually , these dreams usually only go bad and always the feeling of being totally lost and frustrated , but not this one . Wish I could remember exactly what I saw , there was definitly some high-tech gadgets in my room with my scope and stuff and experimenting in my dream , good successful feeling of excitement is all I really remember .